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Hej!
Allting är rätt så bra just nu förutom all skola så ler livet. Mitt förhållande med Mara är underbart och jag har fått sommarjobb på folkhälsan. Med mina sommarjobbs pengar tänker jag åka utomlands med Mara. Skolan är så stressande just nu och det känns som att jag har 15 000 saker att göra på en gång men jag gör inget av dem.
Sista veckan av kvs är det för niorna projektvecka, det går ut på att alla nior har "ledigt" för en vecka då de ensamma, i par eller i en grupp av tre dokumenterar på valfritt sätt ett projekt som kan vara allt från att bygga en terass till att vara vegan i en vecka. Själv ska jag tilsammans med Caramia hyra en airbnb lägenhet i stan och försöka bo för oss själva. Tror inte att det blir allt för svårt men vi måste göra varje dag något till vårt projekt i 6 timmar, sammanlagt 30 timmar på 5 dagar.
Det är snart påsklov och jag och Mara kela fara till Estland från fredag till måndag.

kvs vändagsfest Mara, jag och Anni

Vi firade Annis födelsedag förra veckoslutet hos henne. Vi hade skitkul och allt gick underligt bra. 

Min, B.as, Mattis, Maras och Osses födelsedagspresent till Anni.

Tack för att ni läste! 

//Vera

from English till Svenska

Hej! Jag tänker sluta skriva på engelska eftersom det var rätt så jobbigt och jag kan uttrycka mig bättre på svenska. Dock var det ganska kul med en liten challenge och who knows? Kanske jag byter tillbaka till engelska eller något annat språk.

Vad är era sommarplaner?
 Själv ska jag (hoppeligen) i Juni till Montenegro med Mara och Juli-Augusti (hoppeligen) jobba på Folkhälsan för att betala tillbaka en del av resan till mamma och pappa. Resten av sommaren tänker jag bli sjuuukt brun och bara sova och äta massvis med isglass.


Just nu är Sara hemma från Budapest och vi var igår och se på hateful eight. Quentin Tarantino är ett geni även om filmen var lite väl rå i min smak.

Jag har massor med projekt i skolan just nu men det känns inte så. Jag är inte alls motiverad inför skolan och det är jätte dåligt eftersom jag vill/måste ha ett bra avgångsbetyg och fortsätter det såhär så kommer det inte hända. Jag ska söka till Tölö Gymasiums human ekologi linje och skulle vara jätte skönt att veta att man inte behöver oroa sej för för lågt medeltal.

Tack för att du läst!

//Vera

New years eve and schoolstart

Hey!
Let me tell you about my New Years celebration...
This story begins a few weeks before New Years when me and my friends were contemplating where to go and I told them I'd ask my parents if they'd be gone and they told me they were going to spend New Years at our neighbors which was kinda perfect for me and my friends who I invited over. So on New Years eve we were just chilling and drinking and everything was under control but then I seem to have drunk a bit too much and I can't remember anything that happened after 00.00 but I'm sure I had fun.
I blacked out on my bed and my parents got home, I woke up with my mother next to me comforting me.. (this is the moment Vera realized she fucked up)
I don't remember who but someone took me to a bed in the other side of the house and I slept there. I woke up, still kinda drunk with the worst hangover ever and such guilt. I felt so bad that my mother had to see me in that condition and that my friends had to take care of me and everyone else who might have drunk a bit too much. Thank God I have the best parents in the world who didn't get mad when i fucked up.
So, how was your New Years eve?



The first day of school is behind me now and I am exhausted I was hoping for some sort of special program or something but no. With zero hours of sleep going to school was a true pain in the ass. My day consisted of civics, P.E and English. Once I got home I tried to stay awake but it didn't really work so I slept for about an hour until my younger brothers came home and started playing nhl.


Right now I'm trying to write a manuscript for my English class assignment where we are supposed to come up with a movie plot and film and edit a trailer to it. It's going nowhere

Thanks for reading and I hope you had a wonderful winter break!

//VERA

Budapest, drama and Christmas!

Hello!

Soo much has happened since I last wrote. I've been to Budapest to visit my sister and there has been so much drama happening at the moment and yesterday was christmas!

Let's start with Budapest

I went there with the mission of having an internship at Redcross Hungary but that failed completely.

My flight to Budapest was 24.11 and my flight back was 3.12

I had so much fun even though I didn't really get my internship the way I wanted. I went to the Hungarian Redcross head quarters and asked if they had gotten my email regarding my voluntary work but they didn't speak English and I don't speak Hungarian so communicating was difficult. A man who spoke a little bit English walked in and helped with translating and after a while there was 15 people in the lobby who were just staring at me and the receptionist was screaming something in the phone and then the man told me to write down my phone number and email adress and told me they would contact me later the same day. I waited for two days and then I called there and I got a phone number that I was supposed to call but it didn't work so I just gave up and called Amnesty International instead who were really kind and offered me to help them at the 2015 Human rights forum and fair at the European youth centre Budapest but my God it was boring! All I did was said "I'm sorry but I don't speak Hungarian" and smiled for four hours.

But Budapest was fantastic! I had so much fun and the people that I met were really kind and nice.

And next the drama part. I will not mention any names but there are two people who really like me and I've been really confused for quite some time of who to choose but I do know now and I'm so happy with who I chose and I feel like it's perfect the way it is and I like this person so much and I am excited to see what the future has for us. As for the other person, I'm sorry but it was never as real as it is with the person who I am with. I wish you all the best in life.

Christmas was yesterday and I got so spoiled with gifts and I am so grateful for everything and it was lovely to have my sister home for Christmas.

I got white marshall headphones

A pair of black eight-button Docs (In loove<333)

I got much more and I am so happy! 

Merry Christmas a bit late <3

Thanks for reading!

//Vera

emotions for fucks sake

UGH

Hi!
I am so fucking confused right now.
There is this one person that I have a major crush on and he can be such a dickhead but my God I can't help these emotions.



Emotions screw me up big time. Plus my anxieties are through the roof.
I have a french test tomorrow and as the master of procrastination, it would be wrong for me to have started studying already. I'm screwed.
But for some reason I'm still smiling and I am kinda happy even tho I feel like crying 60% of the day.


thanks for reading this short attention-seeking post.


//VERA

Anxieties, Scooters and Halloween

I am feeling undoubtedly anxious right now and I don't really know why. I just feel really bad. I had so much fun last night with a bunch of friends and now I just feel alone and unwanted. But I'll be alright in a while.

Let me tell you what happened two days ago:
So, I was supposed to go to one of my friends house with some of my friends.
Me and my neighbour/bff hitched rides with our friends' scooters and then we went to the super-market  to get some stuff for the night.
We had to wait for one of our friends in the centrum of our town so we went to park our scooter on the parking lot infront of a store and what a pleasant suprise; a police motorcycle testing scooters and mopeds. So we were quite nervous because my friends scooter goes way faster than the legal limit. We went in the store and bougt french-fries and then we waited a while in the store but it didn't get any better. Not only was there the police on a motorcycle but a police car.
My friend told me to go out from another door and she would pick me up from the other side of the parking lot. I did as she told me and thank God the police didn't want to test her scooter. We drove to our friends house to wait for our other friend so that we could all drive together to our friends house for a sleep-over. Driving there was okay but cold as fuck. It was a 15 km ride and when we were about to make our last turn in to our friends drive-in. We slipped with the scooter in the mud and in the air we flew. My friend who was driving fell on her side/knees and I fell straight on her. I fell with my chest on her back which took my breath away (not in a good way) as in i couldn't breathe for a while and my knees were and still are hurting so god damned bad and it was quite troublesome to walk but I'm very thankful nothing worse happened to my friend or me. We went inside and ate lasagna and watched the x-factor Uk. We just chilled for the rest of the night and went to sleep.

So right now I'm lying in my second room just feeling like sh*t and listening to Eric Clapton once again. My anxiety is so bad right now and I feel suffocated in my own  mind and I just want to leave my head for a while, but I can't sleep because my mind is overthinking my emotions right now.






on a more positive note: IT'S HALLOWEEN SOON!!!!
I'm note sure yet what I want to dress up as but probably Harley Quinn or the Joker from Suicide Squad or a really cool skeleton face-paint thingy.



my jam for halloween


Thanks for reading! :)))

//Vera

Living my achingly boring life

OMFG
HI
I LEFT CAPS LOCK ON



Hi
How's my life you might ask?
Not bad at all actually still looking for an internship place in Budapest and getting kind of anxious over not getting an answer yet soo if anyone knows a place in Budapest that would hire me on an un paid internship for two weeks in november-december hmu ;)

ooh and I'm in the planning committee for my schools ninth graders winter prom. I am really excited but we are still looking for a band or a dj or someone. And a dress oh what to wear?

considering wearing the dress I'm wearing in this picture but I feel like people are going to wear something much more promy or fancy but we'll see, I'll update on that later.

at the moment in my room listening to Adore Delano and Eric Clapton and skyping some of my friends.
I have a huge crush on this girl that I contacted when I found her on tumblr and my God she is lovely ahh <3
I feel very gay today.


Thanks for reading
//Vera