Budapest, drama and Christmas!

Hello!

Soo much has happened since I last wrote. I've been to Budapest to visit my sister and there has been so much drama happening at the moment and yesterday was christmas!

Let's start with Budapest

I went there with the mission of having an internship at Redcross Hungary but that failed completely.

My flight to Budapest was 24.11 and my flight back was 3.12

I had so much fun even though I didn't really get my internship the way I wanted. I went to the Hungarian Redcross head quarters and asked if they had gotten my email regarding my voluntary work but they didn't speak English and I don't speak Hungarian so communicating was difficult. A man who spoke a little bit English walked in and helped with translating and after a while there was 15 people in the lobby who were just staring at me and the receptionist was screaming something in the phone and then the man told me to write down my phone number and email adress and told me they would contact me later the same day. I waited for two days and then I called there and I got a phone number that I was supposed to call but it didn't work so I just gave up and called Amnesty International instead who were really kind and offered me to help them at the 2015 Human rights forum and fair at the European youth centre Budapest but my God it was boring! All I did was said "I'm sorry but I don't speak Hungarian" and smiled for four hours.

But Budapest was fantastic! I had so much fun and the people that I met were really kind and nice.

And next the drama part. I will not mention any names but there are two people who really like me and I've been really confused for quite some time of who to choose but I do know now and I'm so happy with who I chose and I feel like it's perfect the way it is and I like this person so much and I am excited to see what the future has for us. As for the other person, I'm sorry but it was never as real as it is with the person who I am with. I wish you all the best in life.

Christmas was yesterday and I got so spoiled with gifts and I am so grateful for everything and it was lovely to have my sister home for Christmas.

I got white marshall headphones

A pair of black eight-button Docs (In loove<333)

I got much more and I am so happy! 

Merry Christmas a bit late <3

Thanks for reading!

//Vera

emotions for fucks sake

UGH

Hi!
I am so fucking confused right now.
There is this one person that I have a major crush on and he can be such a dickhead but my God I can't help these emotions.



Emotions screw me up big time. Plus my anxieties are through the roof.
I have a french test tomorrow and as the master of procrastination, it would be wrong for me to have started studying already. I'm screwed.
But for some reason I'm still smiling and I am kinda happy even tho I feel like crying 60% of the day.


thanks for reading this short attention-seeking post.


//VERA

Anxieties, Scooters and Halloween

I am feeling undoubtedly anxious right now and I don't really know why. I just feel really bad. I had so much fun last night with a bunch of friends and now I just feel alone and unwanted. But I'll be alright in a while.

Let me tell you what happened two days ago:
So, I was supposed to go to one of my friends house with some of my friends.
Me and my neighbour/bff hitched rides with our friends' scooters and then we went to the super-market  to get some stuff for the night.
We had to wait for one of our friends in the centrum of our town so we went to park our scooter on the parking lot infront of a store and what a pleasant suprise; a police motorcycle testing scooters and mopeds. So we were quite nervous because my friends scooter goes way faster than the legal limit. We went in the store and bougt french-fries and then we waited a while in the store but it didn't get any better. Not only was there the police on a motorcycle but a police car.
My friend told me to go out from another door and she would pick me up from the other side of the parking lot. I did as she told me and thank God the police didn't want to test her scooter. We drove to our friends house to wait for our other friend so that we could all drive together to our friends house for a sleep-over. Driving there was okay but cold as fuck. It was a 15 km ride and when we were about to make our last turn in to our friends drive-in. We slipped with the scooter in the mud and in the air we flew. My friend who was driving fell on her side/knees and I fell straight on her. I fell with my chest on her back which took my breath away (not in a good way) as in i couldn't breathe for a while and my knees were and still are hurting so god damned bad and it was quite troublesome to walk but I'm very thankful nothing worse happened to my friend or me. We went inside and ate lasagna and watched the x-factor Uk. We just chilled for the rest of the night and went to sleep.

So right now I'm lying in my second room just feeling like sh*t and listening to Eric Clapton once again. My anxiety is so bad right now and I feel suffocated in my own  mind and I just want to leave my head for a while, but I can't sleep because my mind is overthinking my emotions right now.






on a more positive note: IT'S HALLOWEEN SOON!!!!
I'm note sure yet what I want to dress up as but probably Harley Quinn or the Joker from Suicide Squad or a really cool skeleton face-paint thingy.



my jam for halloween


Thanks for reading! :)))

//Vera

Living my achingly boring life

OMFG
HI
I LEFT CAPS LOCK ON



Hi
How's my life you might ask?
Not bad at all actually still looking for an internship place in Budapest and getting kind of anxious over not getting an answer yet soo if anyone knows a place in Budapest that would hire me on an un paid internship for two weeks in november-december hmu ;)

ooh and I'm in the planning committee for my schools ninth graders winter prom. I am really excited but we are still looking for a band or a dj or someone. And a dress oh what to wear?

considering wearing the dress I'm wearing in this picture but I feel like people are going to wear something much more promy or fancy but we'll see, I'll update on that later.

at the moment in my room listening to Adore Delano and Eric Clapton and skyping some of my friends.
I have a huge crush on this girl that I contacted when I found her on tumblr and my God she is lovely ahh <3
I feel very gay today.


Thanks for reading
//Vera

Being sick sucks donkey balls

Hello!
I am very very sick at the moment and my nose has never been as runny. (Fun fact: a human produces about 1.5 liters of snot everyday) but it feels like I have ten times more than usual. However I have been sick since Friday but I'm pretty sure I'm going to school tomorrow. Which means that I need to do my homework in English because my English teacher gives no mercy (Yes I am talking to you Hillevi)
The weather is really rainy and gray outside oh how I wish I was in another country right now. Like in Hungary where my sister lives. I don't know if this is a thing in other countries than Finland but we  have this thing called Prao or Praktik or in finnish tetti or työelämään tutstuminen. Where we go somewhere on an unpaid internship where we would like to work when we get older. I'm trying to go to Budapest to the redcross or some other charity work since that is something I am really passionate about, And I really want to go to Budapest since my sister lives there and I want to see her before christmas when she comes home to visit for a while. I really miss her.

I had to cover my tomato red nose in this picture, it looks horrible

thanks for taking your time in reading this 

Vera

More about me:

1) I really love cats, like alot

2) I'm always up for a hug so if you see me you know what to do ;)

3) My favorite colors are black and gray (not that emo tho)

4) My birthday is on the 10th of November (I as born 2000)

5) I have two older sisters and two younger brothers; Isac (5), Jacob (8) Lisa (17) Sara (20)

6) I love blogging and writing in general

7) I'm a scout leader and I love it

8)I have a big passion for music and movies

9) My all-time favorite movie is 10 things i hate about you

10) My all-time favorite band is the Rolling Stones

11) My go to comfort food is ice-cream

12) I love makeup and I'd love to do it professionally 

13) I dream about travelling the whole world around helping people in some way

14) I don't have many friends but I have a few really close ones.

15) I love sleeping and I do it alot

16) I am a feminist

17) I am pansexual but I'm kinda closeted about it to people near me but I can be open  about it on the internet for some reason, I'm just not ready for my homofobic school and town to hear about it from me even though I know I have people around me who will support and love me no matter what

18) I have two things that I hate most in this world and that's periods and bugs

19) I also strongly dislike bearnaise sauce 

20) I'm trying to learn Italian and I hope to be fluent one day

21) I'm really bad at committing to reading a book

22) My favorite tv-shows are glee and ru pauls drag race 

23) I'm very lazy

24) I fall in love very easily and that is very troublesome for me and the person I'm crushing on

25) I have like 15 000 crushes right now and it's really confusing

26) I'm very weak (physically) 

27) I really love Miley Cyrus and everything that she stands for

28) I am a terrible advice giver

29) I am a member of our schools anti-bullying team and a tutor

30) I hate the finnish word for night which is yö and it sounds like a person throwing up

xxx

Vera

I am Vera

Hello!
My name is Vera
The name is Russian and means hope. My second name is Aurora which is Latin and comes from  Aurora Borealis which means northern lights and I've always liked my second name better than my first name because I am from Finland and northern lights are a quite common thing over here. I am very interested in people an I love listening to people and about where they are from. I am from a small town in southern Finland, about 45 minutes car drive from Helsinki. My dream is to travel the world and help people. I have a big passion for culture and cultural differences. I love writing and I have done it ever since I've learned the alphabet, probably tried writing before that too. However writing in English is new for me,  English isn't my native language and I am not really that good at it but I will try my best.

 I am fourteen years old and I am a lazy piece of shit, My day consists 50% of sleeping and 50% of complaining about either hunger or tiredness. I love makeup and I would love to do it professionally but that would be kinda hard since I also want to travel around the world and you need money for cool stuff like that, what was I talking about?
I am pansexual and no that doesn't mean I love animals as one of my classmates thought. It means that I am simply open to love in whatever shape or form it finds me.
I have a major obsession with cats and dragqueens and all things nice.
I am excited to keep up with writing here and hopefully someone finds my life a little interesting at least.

xxx Vera Wickström